I sat in the room by myself, waiting. The answer came..."how are we going to do this" I thought. A tear slid down my cheek. "It's just not the right time." I stood up and went into the other room to talk to Bill. He needed to know...
It has taken me awhile to get to writing this post...and now that I am sitting here, I'm not sure what to say. Life has taken an unexpected turn for us. I've shared some of what has been happening here. The ups and downs we have had, have been overwhelming at times. But, we have felt God's presence through it all. We know that God is in control even when things have seemed so chaotic.
Well, The Lord in His grace has seen fit to give Bill and I a blessing that we are totally unworthy of...so unworthy. He has decided to add another member to our family. We are going to have another baby around the middle of February.
This came as a surprise to us. We were not expecting this right now. And, not to sound ungrateful (because we aren't) it just seemed to us that the timing could not be worse. My first thought was, I don't want to tell anyone. I am so ashamed to admit that. I was so worried about what others might think. I was afraid of being judged, that people would think we were irresponsible. But...God has made it clear to us that we need to share our good news (and yes it is good news) with everyone, and not worry about what others think.
After wrestling with fear and surprise, God really laid it on my heart that this baby is a promise...a promise that He has not forgotten us, a promise that He is going to provide. I feel so overwhelmed with love for my Savior. He has blessed me beyond what I deserve. He is such a wonderful God. I know that I can trust Him.
The day before father's day was when we found out about our little gift. So, that is what Bill got for Father's day!
The timing to us seemed to be less than perfect, but it was God's plan, and His plan is ALWAYS perfect. So tonight, we praise God for new life! We lay all our hopes and fears at His feet and choose to rest and rejoice .
Praise the LORD.
Praise God in his sanctuary;
praise him in his mighty heavens.
Praise him for his acts of power;
praise him for his surpassing greatness.
Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet,
praise him with the harp and lyre,
praise him with tambourine and dancing,
praise him with the strings and flute,
praise him with the clash of cymbals,
praise him with resounding cymbals.
Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.
Praise the LORD. Psalm 150
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